blankwithoutyou

0214. it's when you fight so hard that you wonder if you're hurt at all. and when you do find out that you're bleeding all over, it's never too early to throw in the towel before you lose consciousness.

undoubtedly, there will be people who will be unhappy or disapproving about me giving up this fight. whatever happened to tenacity? whatever happened to all the hopes and dreams?

truth to be, i simply cant please everyone. since i cant do that, why dont i just please myself? i dont need a break. they dont need to give me one. i just need to get away from here. as far as bloody possible.

please dont try to understand me, dont try to question me, dont try to dissuade me and most importantly of all, dont object to my decision. i am leaving for my own good. not for yours nor anyone else's. selfish yes. self preserving yes too.

and this time, i wont ever turn back. not even if the whole wide world only mattered where i used to sit.

o where art thou, white envelope?