blankwithoutyou

0225. i can never imagine myself earning anything even sketchily close to 3k a month. so there goes owning a car, buying a flat or marrying a wife for that matter of fact, if i ever want to get married.

now the surprising thing is, i can never imagine myself earning enough trust from someone to nominate herself as a model if i ever wanted to try shooting artistic nudity. seriously, if any guy had hesitated to say yes, i'll have no qualms calling him gay. or cowardly. or retarded!

but guess what? i wasted no time to reject her offer.

c'mon, im definitely straight. i love women too much to be gay. haha.

to be fair, im no professional. not even a amateur if you consider the truth that i dont own a camera. yet. haha. it'll be a waste of her time and bravery if the pictures dont turn out good. plus things could lead to more complications concerning the rights of the photos, ability to release them etc... unless i officially hire her to model for me, nude or otherwise.

for now, i'll just have to stab that idea a few more times in my head to make sure it dies.

i would take up her offer, under her conditions, if i had the equipment and the confidence in my skill. oh well... PAY DAY PLEASE HURRY UP!